Acceptance

I am thirty years old now. I still have a strong desire to write music. What has left me though is the desire to be recognized as a prominent musical genius. Which I will never be and I am willing to accept that. What matters to me most now is the ability to do what I feel I must do. Which is write music. To write music regardless of what people think and instead write music because that's what I was put on this earth to do. I have spent so much time, money, and effort into studying and practicing music. Practicing enough to be musical but not enough to be a virtuoso and I am fine with that. In the recent weeks I have been practicing and sharpening my very dull musical literacy skills. I can continue to write and improve my overall literacy skills while also earning money to pay off my student debts. This is what I am going to do for the next two years of my life. The job that while pull me out of the hole of debt is truck driving. That is of course if everything goes to plan. If those plans fall through, well then I must do what humans do best and adapt. Here is to doing what we ought to be doing while also living.