Serious life goals

Hi Everyone,


I think we all wonder what would be best for us and I don’t think that it would be too far fetched to say that the ratio of what’s “best for us (t:o) caring for others” varies for some of us. Unfortunately there are people out there including my self that think allot about what decisions would be best for the future. I think about it more so than other peoples wants but maybe not so much their needs. So I end up tipping to the right side of the scale under pressures of situations that risk hurting someones feelings or risk effecting someones life negatively through a decision that would steer me in a positive direction and create a more challenging decision for a friend or family member.

Sometimes it's hard to stay on track with goals and when I hit that point I begin to think about everything that happens on a day to day basis to see what needs to change. And sometimes, I hold out on change because that decision to alter that area of my life will have some sort of adverse effect on friends and family. And you know what? I fear being the person who makes a decision that can alter any persons life in a negative fashion.

I know that, in those instances I am headed farther away from what I want to accomplish in life. An example would be like standing at a fork in a road and to the left is the road to new opportunities and big dreams and to the right is the road of monotony and the downward slope that swirls through to the end of time and before you know it, life is taken away and there is no going back to change it. Maybe after all is said and done and after we leave this planet or become one with it again (however you wanna look at it) we won't remember anything. Maybe that's all the more reason to take advantage of what you have.

A trick I try to implement is to keep a clear head, think about what my goals are and surround myself with people who are like minded and good hearted. I feel pretty safe in saying that not everyone is self motivating. People such as my self need the positive energy/atmosphere from other people with the same serious mindset to keep chugging along the hard road to my goal.

“How much time will this take away from the time I could be working hard on my goals in life?”

I used to think this was a selfish question because it focuses solely on benefiting me. And to be honest I don’t like to put myself before others. I almost always find myself uncomfortable doing something I did not want to do because I was too afraid to hurt the feelings of the person who invited me along or I just didn't have the heart (or man hood however you want to look at it) to tell them I have more important things to do and implement time management skills.

I didn't accomplish anything I wanted on those days. The only task accomplished was shooting the shit with a new back drop (or even worse, the same back drop) and that ends up turning the day into another blur… No break through, nothing new learned just another day lost to the endless ranting of bullshit.

What it comes down to is an unhealthy mind set, a mindset of uncertainty and a feeling of being lost and hopeless. All symptoms of unhealthy or bad decisions that have been made.

So, I will leave myself and you the reader with this.

From here on out it’s time to start looking out for my own and in doing so I will find a way to do it by:

1) Continuing not to take advantage of others

2) Continuing not to walk on or stab others in the back (Metaphor people not literal)

And

2) Continuing to be tactful in telling others I have higher priorities in my life that mean allot more to me than heading out to BS and drink alcohol.

It’s not much, but it’s a start. I have knots to untie before I can accelerate forward and it starts with one knot at a time. And forming a blog is a tool for me, a tool to use as a means to hold myself accountable. And I feel for every additional person who reads my blog I will be held at an even higher standard of accountability. Hopefully others who have experienced this or who are experiencing these feelings and running into these walls can be helped or least know that they are not alone. Here is to looking at the glass half full no matter how the cup got filled or emptied.

If that makes any sense…